my head hurts today. not just from allergies and smoke, but from beating my head against a table for three hours last night and then not sleeping. turns out that's not good for your body. who woulda thunk. my damn computer is driving me insane (well, insaner). i've got all the parts, correctly installed them, correctly run all of the install programs/drivers necessary . . . but the damn thing still won't work. its been a few months since the bastard has worked, so i'm pretty much used to the frustration and anger. but still . . . IT SHOULD F*@KING WORK!!! i'm gonna take it in to a computer repair/setup store and have them take a go at it, but i can't till my parents get back in town on wednesday. right now they be gone to visit brother at college near boston, MA. i have many an hour of praying/repenting to look forward to over the weekend, but on the plus side, i get to see a friend on monday in between services. and i hate trig. and spanish. and most other aspects of school. i can't wait for summer . . . oh well. i bitch and complain too much. its just who i am. to any who read this, have a great day and i love ya. (except for you . . . you know who you are)

today i am bored. not just a little bored, but very, very, very, very bored. i need a car. or a life. i should get one of those. today i am just staying in doing homework and shit. god i'm soooo fucking BORED!!! gahhhhhhh! oh well, nothing to do about it. i was badgered into making a myspace today. i am ashamed of myself. but now i can post silly pics, and keep up with friends who are so obsesed with myspace they communicate no other way. i need to get out more. i did go shoping and get a nice jacket yesterday thou. it was my reward for sitting throu 4 hours of repentance (the joys of jewdaism). i'm feeling misserable cause of my allergies and want nothing more than to sleep for a few weeks. i hate trig. wow ranting aleviates the boredom. temporraily anyway. i've blown through a few minutes!! thats a few minutes closer to sleep time. which comes after pants time. (its RvB). GO CABOOSE!!! oh and as is my traditional ending . . . i love you all . . . except for you . . . you know who you are.

honey i know your having problems defining yourself right now, and i can't speak for any one but myself, but know this: I will always love you no matter what you do, as long as you do what you think is right. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, give me a call (310-455-1832). I'll always be here as your friend and you can trust me when i say i'll never want anything more from you than your friendship. i know others around you always press you for more, but i love you for who you are, not what you can do for me or what i can do to you. and please, always try to smile, it makes you so much more beautiful, both on the inside and out. i love you honey, and hope to God that you'll be okay.
I love you as a wonderful friend, and hope to never lose you.

Current Mood: worried

well, the movie crew needed to repaint all our walls, which is good and all(free paint/painting) but all the fumes are getting to me. I lost my voice and have a killer head ache. The food from the catering service has been pretty good and the crew is real nice, but i want my room back!!!. All the shit that needed to be moved out of the living/family rooms got thrown into my room and my brother's. And when the grouchy one is gone, I use his room for my television viewing and to work in(he's got a great desk, and the one in my room has a minimum of a foot of crap piled all over it). We are getting good money for the shoot (although i get none) but still! . . . Oh well It'll be over tomorrow. The filming is starting around 3ish and going until . . . around 3ish. TONIGHT!! I doubt i'll get much sleep. Doesn't matter to much though, my trig test isn't till friday so i'll get a day of sleep in. Anyways, enough of my bitching, it could be a lot worse. Friends, I love you all and hope you a great day and week and month and year. (except for you . . . you know who you are)

Ugg. Right now I'm moving everything in my house out of the house or into random rooms(mostly my room). I've now got three couches and two tables in my room(and no room to walk). All of the pictures, trinkets, and collectibles that I spent hours artfully arranging have been taken down and or packed up. And of course I'm the one who's got to put everything back after the shoot is done. I hate when we have film crews . . . at least they usually have good catering and we get to keep the extra food. And my parents make some quick easy cash. All the filming is being done at night so I'm not going to be getting much sleep the next couple of days. Oh well. I don't really need sleep that much anyway.
To all my friends who may read this, I love you all. (except for you . . . you know who you are).

I wandered out of my room this morning in my bathrobe(as per usual) and was quite surprised when I ran right into several people whom I did not know. Now it turns out these guys were members of a film crew. Seems there is going to be a commercial filmed at my house tomorrow and some setup people came over to get the house to look like they want. Well this has happened before so its not to unusual, but normal, my parents tell me of any filming before the crew shows up. This time they didn't bother. Now before any one gets excited, you'll probably never see this commercial. Its a 30 blip for a new on-line poker site(how drool). Closest thing to a famous person is the dude who took home the World Series of Poker title last year. (right . . . like anyone cares). Oh well, off to school now. Hope anyone who reads this has a great day (except for you . . . you know who you are)

Current Mood: surprised

Haha!, I lied. I said I'd have more interesting stuff to post . . . yeah . . . I kinda don't. I hung out with a friend for a couple of hours but nothing in particular stood out. Don't know who want to know this or why I'm typing it. I'm a bit tired. And I'm rambling a bit. But I don't care. Its my livejournal and I can type and post needless words. I HAVE THE POWER!!!!!! (He-Man reference for any of you people who don't get it) (yeah I used to watch He-Man, what's it to ya). Well I could probably rant and rave a bit longer, but why bother. I'll post pics of me "pretty in pig tails" soon as I can get them. Wow, I just remembered, Liz you and Robyn (the friend I was hanging out with today) are the only people who know I have a live journal. Robyn already knows what I did today . . . and I'm sure I'll be talking to Liz on IM soon enough. So this whole rant was pointless. At least it got my fingers some excercise. Any way. Yeah. I'm thinking I need more sleep. But as they say, I'll sleep when I'm dead(or at around 10:30pm, which ever comes first). Wow I can't believe how long this pointless post has become. And I'm making it longer still. I'm typing just like I talk. Thats bad news. Means my brain shut off again. Oh well. Liz, Robyn, as the only two who might see this, I love you both and hope you have a good night or day on what ever day you see this. To anyone else who at some time may read this(for what ever reason) f*$k you all!!!!!!!!!!!!(sorry I got a bit excited there, I apologize)(Now I am aware I could go back and delete that statement I didn't really mean to type, but its too much effort. So instead I'll expend more effort explaining why I'm not doing something else that requires less effort. It made sence to me!! Anyway, once again I love you all!! (except you . . . you know who you are . . .)

well . . . so far today i've recovered from too little sleep and too much food (two parties in two days with too much delicious homemade foods and desserts at each) finished up the first season of Gundam Wing (one of my all time favorite animes) *i really feel sorry for Quarte tho*. Besides that i've just made a live journal!! Horay!!! nothing much else to say. I may be in the palisades latter on today (around 4 or 5 maybe. if any one wants to hang out or do anything . . . gimme a call or IM me). latter i'll post more interesting things.